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Priyanka Gulati's avatar

It’s 3 am. I couldn’t sleep, memories of the past haunting me, catching myself in cycles of self loathing yet again and feeling miserable. Almost felt I’m not worthy enough to heal. Read this, cried through it, I have hope again. To envision a future where my life will be unbelievably beautiful. Thank you, Laura

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Laura Matsue Guenther's avatar

I've been there. You will make it out. The fact that the tears can still come shows proof your soul is still alive and well. Thank you for sharing. This comment really touched my heart.

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Polyxena of the Pink Poppy's avatar

I am here too.

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Leigh-Anne LoPinto's avatar

I love this story, Laura. Thank you for sharing the depths of your heart! We are kindred souls, and in my own way I can deeply relate. We are the cycle breakers, the alchemists, and the ones remembering who we truly are. ❤️

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Laura Matsue Guenther's avatar

For sure. I know you've got your own version of this cycle-breaking, too!

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Joanna Hodge's avatar

Thank you Laura. The beautiful photo at the end has such a profound power. It seems to alchemise your story for me. Very similar echoes in my own family line and my own personal life experience. Xx

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iCoyôtl's avatar

Awesome share 🙏 what struck me was how so many of us have been pushed through such a hard time and dark night of the soul in order to get through to the other side. A metaphor for our entire collective consciousness though. Like our entire civilization is currently going through that same dark night of the soul. It bodes well for us collectively, that there are those who do make it through and and can help the others who are searching for the same thing. 🙏🕯️

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Oliver Costrop's avatar

It s the Divine who provides you with unlimited courage and insights to keep watching and feeling the burning fire inside. Your story was very touching Laura . Thank you for being a part of my life with your always ongoing sharing of wisdom.

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Laura Matsue Guenther's avatar

I agree. I do follow little nudges from above when I'm trying to figure out what to write about. Thank you for reading!

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Yvonne Power's avatar

Thanks for sharing Laura. As always I very much resonate with your story ❤️

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Elizabeth Schneider's avatar

As the cycle breaker in my family, I truly appreciate you sharing your story and journey.

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Light Loom's avatar

Deeply grateful for your sharing Laura, it's truly a blessing to read this at this moment.

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Ashley K's avatar

Thank you for sharing this story with us and the beautiful picture at the end...so sweet! As always, your writting ressonates with what I have been thinking about recently. The part of the name, got me. My middle name is my mothers name, and she always told me that we grew up together, and some ways I have helped her grow up, and honestly, this goes with something you posted the other day, "what makes you cringe is the shadow work", dude, I hate to say this, but my middle name always made me cringe! I don't know why exactly, but I feared so much of becoming my mom, or even sounding like her, to the point of chaning how I spoke when people told me I sounded like my mom. I probably shouldn't talk about all this here, so I am going to wrap this up, and just say, i am a million times greatful for you writtings. and thank you again, for sharing this story, I know these are vuneralble parts, but getting it out I'm sure feels good, and I honor you for you sharing it all.

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Laura Matsue Guenther's avatar

I can relate to so much of this. My name used to make me cringe too! It took a lot of healing to learn to embrace the name I was given. I also relate to what you said about sounding like your mom. I catch myself in many moments like that, too. It's funny that no matter how much we don't want to be like them, we cannot escape their influence! I'm glad to hear the shadow work quote resonated, too - that really encompasses the parts of ourselves that we need to love more!

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Ashley K's avatar

Omg I just listened to the newest episode of your podcast and you said something about not wanting to sounds like your mother, I squealed lol that was a great podcast, I'm sharing it with all my friends because the information is such gold!

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Ashley K's avatar

Its nice to know I'm not alone in some these ways I behave!

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Nikki's avatar

In sharing your truth, pain and courage, you hold space for others to find their own. I feel your tears with this one. And my own. We are our ancestors. I'm releasing big family wounds at the moment too. I feel Jupiter in Cancer is assisting here (it's on my Sun at the moment). Love the photo <3

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Laura Matsue Guenther's avatar

We must have Sun conjunct Ascendant then because it's on my ascendant right now! This was definitely a Jupiter in Cancer moment, ripe with all the emotions, too. Enjoy the Jupiter transit!

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Nikki's avatar

No wonder I love what you have to say! ;-)

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Josie Beug, DVM, CVA's avatar

Thank you for sharing your story. It is very healing to hear the storues of others, knowing we are not alone. I share the name of my hreat-grandmother who died in childbirth with a baby girl who also died, and the name of a rebel who, as a single woman, homesteaded by herself. So many of those older generations just internalized it all- and now we are the ones who get to speak for them.

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Annabel Grey's avatar

What a beautiful, moving and powerful story.

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Kate Shantz's avatar

This was incredible. Thank you for sharing. ❤️

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Martin Josè Kjeldsen's avatar

With all my heart, thank you so much for your story.

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Nan C's avatar

What a beautiful story and one that will give many strength.I honor your journey and your ability to heal.

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High ORAC Value's avatar

Beautifully written and expressed, Laura. I can relate to so much of what you shared. We are all walking each other home.

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