As mentioned in the intro, for those who feel challenged my story - I won’t be debating you in the comments, especially those who question the validity of whether or not I’ve seen people die or get ill shortly after taking the vaccine.
Asking "source?!" "Prove it" when I'm merely sharing a story from people I've spoken to in a counselling context, is also odd. I find this kind of behaviour - a complete lack of empathy - demonstrates a different type of evil that the plandemic so clearly brought out of so many. I am not here to march out the scientific data, although there is plenty of people who focus on this, I merely telling a story-my story-which you are free to believe or not.
I understand cognitive dissonance may prevent you from considering that the shots you probably took were dangerous, and I can understand why you would want to argue with me about that to soothe your discomfort and reaffirm your belief - but you and I know that if you wanted to learn about alternative perspectives on this, you would have done so by now. It's all out there. It's no secret.
I’ve had far too many of those conversations over the years to know that they tend to be fruitless. If you don’t believe me about the vaccine - please feel free to check out people like Steve Kirsch, John Campbell, Naomi Wolf, there’s tons of people sharing data on Substack alone.
I welcome heartfelt reflections and resonance, but I won’t be debating you on whether or not what I experienced and saw is real.
Side effects from the vaccine are real, not rare. If you took the vaccine and are well, be glad you didn't experience something like this. But your experience doesn't negate those who have.
I am a front line Paediatrician and a spiritual seeker and much of what you have written has hit home. I was one of the few people that took a very public stance against vaccines. I went to court in India to prevent their mandatory application to the paediatric population. And handed out medical exemptions to avoid the draconian and rather silly directives. Simultaneously, I separated from my abusive partner, and in the aftermath lost my home and my daughter. It's taken 4 years. I am still in a bitter legal battle as said abusive ex tries to bully me out of a fair settlement. But - my child moved in with me 2 years ago and the last 2 years has been.. Magical in so many ways. The turning point was adopting my dog Orion (probably a Buddha in his past life). I have since become a meditation facilitator and can totally see how NONE of that would be possible without the initiation that was Covid. My practices are also more about embodiment than anything else. I have been tuning in to my soul now as a practice for the last 5 years( with a vehemence). And also Veils of Reality. I am so glad to read your unfiltered story and wanted to validate your perspective by offering my own. For anyone choosing to evolve, these are exciting times. Chaotic, but full of the energy of the New as the old decripit order collapses around our ears
So well said. I am also sick and tired of people asking for scientific proof, and then not even bothering to read it when you do provide it to them. Can I copy this response? With credit, of course.
I liked your article. One positive I can point to during Covid was that it is when I discovered Substack. I discovered an investigative journalist who had been writing some straightforward information about Covid. I created my own Substack in August 2021 and lurked here until this summer.
The only other way I can sum up Covid is by quoting St. Antony the Great from the 4th century when he said, “A time is coming when men will go mad, and when they see someone who is not mad, they will attack him, saying, 'You are mad; you are not like us.”
This piece brought up a lot for me because my life is so completely different than the way it was before and I still feel like I’m coming to terms with it. I faced the hatred on a really large scale because I kept my business open during COVID and subsequently faced criminal charges, a two year court battle and hefty fines. I received death threats and many people in my small town still refuse to talk to me. I am still experiencing some fallout due to the public nature of my stance. That being said I would not change a thing. I’m proud of what I did and who I’ve become and I want to keep learning and growing. If it weren’t for people like you who are sharing their experiences things would be much lonelier and harder to understand so thank you. ❤️
I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that, Alexandra. I really feel your words. I was angry—raging, at times—at the gaslighting and psychological warfare enacted on humanity. The media manipulation. The censorship. The targeted hatred. It was brutal.
Like you, I truly don’t know how I would’ve stayed sane without voices like Laura’s speaking truth into that darkness. We were all dropped into the boiling pot—or the fire, as Laura so aptly describes it. And the worst part was how all of us unvaccinated so-called “conspiracy theorists" were publicly demonised by a weaponised MSM serving the agenda of elites with extremely deep pockets, hell-bent on rolling us into a technocratic dystopia. They largely failed but the fight for freedom is not over it's vital to stay aware. Gates just pushed through his 'wet dream' in Singapore, a sign that we cannot rest, or stay silent.
I lost my 2.5 million audience on Fascist Book for speaking out, and was attacked by MSM publicly, which obliterated my business overnight. And not long after, my marriage collapsed. Although my wife and I were initially on the same page, she wasn’t interested in pushing back or speaking out—she stayed passive. When we separated, she weaponised everything I had said during that time to try to take my son from me. That betrayal cut deep.
This piece by Laura is a lifeline. It brought it all back for me—the sheer insanity. The pressure cooker. The pain, the loss, and also the strange sense of clarity that came with standing up for what was morally right. I’ve had to go into a cocoon for a while, to pull back and regroup after years of speaking out. My energy was threadbare, especially after an acrimonious divorce and custody battle.
I will never forget the fear of the masked brigade, and all those dropping on the floor after taking the 'vaccine'. Some of them dead within hours, or a day or so later. The medics who got paid God knows how much for pushing that toxic crap, saying “nothing’s wrong.” The free doughnuts to lure more people to take the clot shot. FFS.
I honour your courage. Truly. And I’m grateful you’re still here, still standing, still growing. Keep going, sister. You’re not alone!
P.S Laura, you might not remember, but we connected via email and chatted back in 2020! The start of all the craziness... hugs.
Yes, I remember you Jaime! What a ride you've been through since then. I'm so sorry to hear about what happened to your family as a result of all the craziness. You're not alone - I've heard so many stories about the divide and conquer tearing families apart in extreme ways. Such crazy times we lived through. I'm glad to hear you're still standing after all of this. I'm sure you learned a lot from this. I honor your courage, too.
Thanks for sharing, Alexandra. And jeez, you have really been through it! Death threats and criminal charges?! That is nuts. Thank you for staying strong. I'm sure even though it was hard, it helped you generate a resilient character who could stand for truth.
Thank you for sharing. It always feels a little strange to say, but in some ways, I do carry a kind of gratitude for what Covid disrupted because it jolted me out of a sort of sleepwalking state I hadn’t realized I was in-I’d become just comfortable enough with an uncomfortable life and that’s definitely not where I am now, so I am thankful for that nudge to fully commit to waking up. Of course, there is absolutely nuance and I know how devastating it was for so many. My mom died from internal bleeding related to Covid, and I have friends and family still dealing with effects from the vaccine. Then there was the collective hysteria that followed, and the strange aftershocks we’re still feeling across society and within ourselves. Sometimes I wonder how many people were fully awakened like me who might’ve otherwise kept puttering along without realizing it. And then how many people are still sleepwalking or choose to keep their eyes shut in the aftermath of what was in many ways a spiritual and psychological earthquake
Thank you for sharing, Laura. My biggest regret is that I fully drank the cool aid. Both my mom and mother-in-law were going through cancer at the same time and I thought it was my duty to protect them. Both ended up getting covid anyway and thankfully are both still with us and cancer-free. But I really regret having gotten the vaccine. I never tried to push it on anyone. But the mainstream narrative definitely had me in a choke hold. I'm grateful to have many friends on the same page with me now, but watching some of them vaccinate their children and then post about it on social media was devastating. As I began waking up, I was afraid to be vocal, but now I'm pretty sure most people know where I stand. However, the fear still comes up among new people.
A few days ago, someone posted about this topic in favor of vaccines. The entire post was cruel and degrading and I went against my better judgement and responded. The post had gone viral and had thousands of comments, so I felt as though I was writing into the void, but I was kind and respectful and offered a new perspective. The author responded almost immediately with more cruelty than I think I've ever received. I'm still kind of shaken up about it. But this is the problem you're speaking too--you share a different point of view and you're somehow made out to be Satan. It's the wild, Wild West out there, so thank you for being brave enough to speak up.
Hi Stephanie. Thank you for sharing your story here. It takes a lot of maturity to be able to see the truth after having fallen for the propaganda, and I honour the strength it must have taken in you to do that. Most people have doubled and tripled down since then.
If you are feeling healthy and well, you probably received one of the weaker shots; there was a significant difference in batches.
And, yes... the cruelty surrounding this topic has been unreal, and I'm sorry you had to experience that again recently. I've been in that space so many times. Unfortunately, due to the hostility, conversations about this topic are nearly impossible.
Thank you for shining a light, for seeing the truth, and for showing through your example that people can eventually wake up to the truth when they're ready. That truly inspires me.
Thank you so much for your kind reflection and for honouring my path.
I did have some health-related issues post shot, such as migraines and eczema. I’m also in early onset of perimenopause and I’m not sure if it’s somehow related. It’s so interesting to me how so many people have tripled down on their position. Brainwashing is so very real. Thank you for being a leader in this space and for bravely speaking your truth here. I have enjoyed following you on Instagram and am grateful to continue here on substack. Unrelated, but one of the first things I saw of yours was about holding another person in your heart during random interactions such as the grocery store, etc. And I’ve been integrating that into my daily life as best as I can ever since. ❤️
Brainwashed people respond with anger and hate as a protective mechanism. Acknowledging your point would cause their fragile, false worldview to crumble. They subconsciously protect themselves from hearing any information that might threaten their understanding of reality. I’m sure we all do that to some degree.
Yes I agree. I could definitely feel the ego-mania and fragility behind her cruelty. She had a large following and I think that’s the scariest part of all.
Yep - I remember at the beginning of Covid I held my breath and said what I thought. I remember feeling 'slaughtered' and 'dog-piled-upon' during those first few months. It was brutal. I don't enjoy conflict! (Venus conjunct my Sun) But I had to speak up (lots of Scorpio and Sadge) so I did. Eventually, I don't know what happened - either the fb algorithm changed and my posts didn't show up on my injected friends feeds or they just snoozed me because they didn't want to see my posts - but whatever it was - the conflict stopped and people stopped bothering me. So I continued to post what I believe in without issue now. It's fannnnntastic! But it sure took some courage in those first few months!
Laura, you publicly chronicling the past 5 years makes me feel less isolated. It was such a dumpster fire!
3/13/20 was the last day I did a house call and I said on that day - we are going into mandatory jabs, masks and lockdowns! No one believed me. I was living in Los Angeles, my home of 20 years which I have since left, like you guys. I continued micro activism on social media until the hate got so intense I’d get heart palpitations when turning on my phone.
I no longer feel a need to warn people of the dangers of MRNA or any other health related issues. I’ve really come to accept that some, perhaps many, come to this earth plane to be slaves. Sounds harsh, but is true. Not everyone shares a deep need for sovereignty. And who am I to alter anyone’s path? That realization brought peace.
Thank you for sharing your creative work with the World!!!
OMG, I feel you with the heart palpitations. It's crazy how intense speaking out was during that time - the intense projections and push back we got. I experienced something similar. Glad to hear I'm not alone in that. It's true - at this point, there's no point in warning anymore, especially at this point. Ultimately, there's an important lesson in respecting others' free will in there. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
I also felt peace once I accepted that my stance on the vaccines and mandates was very uncommon and that my loved ones were unable to see through the BS. I did try to warn them with as much information as possible so no regrets. Hard seeing them go through the awakening now though.
Reading Laura’s post and the subsequent comments helps me feel more normal. From the beginning of the COVID saga, I voiced my opinion against the hype and when the vaccine was made nearly mandatory, I spoke of the dangers to deaf and angry ears. I was also ridiculed and shamed into silence.
Thank you so much for writing this as someone who lost a loved one to turbo cancer it genuinely means a lot to hear someone talk about the side effects of the vaccine it helps me feel not crazy so thank you for this beautiful story and for writing it
I just posted about these "turbo cancers" being part of the PLAN. If the injection didn't kill you, you are SUPPOSED to get some kind of chronic illness, ESPECIALLY cancer, because the cancer industry is a big money-maker. All of the shot manufacturers are big players in the chemo game.
You are absolutely helping others light their own candle. Thank you for your strength, courage, determination, and for sharing it with us. Forever grateful.
Thank you Laura for finding the courage to speak your truth. Which has not only helped you strip away what wasn't authentic in your own life, but has helped many others to find their own courage to do the same.
I can relate to basically everything you've shared here. As the only one in my family who didn't go the narrative, I'm sure we have similar tales to tell. I've seen & experienced unprecedented loss, trauma & grief.
II have spent all of this year in some kind of recovery state. I feel like I've needed to finally stop & let my nervous system & spirit heal from the past five years. Not to mention I was also going through Pluto transitting my natal moon in that time. I am definitely not the same person I was 5 years ago. Thank fuck for that!
You & your husband have given many of us the support we couldn't find in our own worlds. When it was so incredibly isolating & lonely at times. Even though my family survived (despite 3 of them having major health problems as a result), I could see & feel the spiritual effects from the needle, & that was the most devastating.
Isn't it a wonderful thing how your words & wisdom ripple out in the world. I'm thousands of miles away, but you're lighting sparks in our souls. There are more stars sparkling in the darkness all the time. Much love to you.
Thanks for sharing Nikki. Capricorn or Cancer moon? It was extra intense to go through Pluto transits through all of these past 5 years. We need recovery just for that alone, LOL.
I'm so glad to hear that our voices helped you during those times. It really means a lot to hear that and makes me feel like the cancellations, the struggles, the losses, were all worth it in the end <3
I’m so glad you read my comment Laura, as I’ve felt so much gratitude for you & Bernhard, & I always wished you could know just what an enormous impact you make, & how much it changes people’s lives when you share your authentic journey like you do <3
I’m a 28 degree Cap moon (in the 8th house), with my Sun in Cancer. Pluto has been cracking me open for about 18 years now, & I even physically died in that time (I lost all my blood after child birth but was resuscitated & survived, but lost my womb), when it was opposing my Sun. So yes, needing recovery from Pluto transits alone is no joke! I knew you’d understand LOL. Thank you for your reply, and so great you’re on Substack. I don’t really engage with anything else much these days.
This is beautifuly written. Thank you for sharing. Reading your article has brought up alot in me from that era that I haven't fully processed yet. I knew from the start that the pandemic was a readjusting of our civilization and a direct assault on the human spirit, though I didn't know the finer details. Those have only stared to become known to me as the years have rolled by, in part thanks to you and Bernhard 🙏
The amount of suffering those few short yet seemingly endless years produced makes the heart ache. And yet, I feel like the madness of the covid period was the calm before an even bigger storm.
Not yet… but will get to it soon. It would be great if you could do the audios for the entire chapters. I hardly have time to read anymore 🤦🏻♀️ so audio is easier for me.
Substack does it automatically for you. It also lets you choose the voice (among five options, I think). Not sure if your past posts will automatically have audio if you change this in your settings, so you might need to repost them again. In my latest post titled The Covid Cartel, you can click on the play button at the top and listen to the audio of the full post. And I believe it also uploads it automatically to your podcast, if you’ve set it up. Tried taking a screenshot but I can’t upload photos here.
Beautiful piece. I can see myself and my journey through so much of what you shared. And yes, I think all of us finding our way to share stories from the last five years would be tremendously valuable.
Amen. many blessings to you Laura. This piece resonates strongly with me. Still have some things I should sit with a bit while adding some logs to that fire😊
Hey, I just wanted to say, I really felt your words. I’m actually new here and was just scrolling around, trying to find my way, when I stumbled across this post… and then your comment. It felt like a little moment of alignment, honestly. Laura’s post hit me deep too. So much truth and vulnerability in her story, it stirred up a lot in me that I haven’t fully unpacked yet either. That line you used about “adding some logs to that fire” really stuck with me. It’s such a gentle and grounded way to describe this ongoing process of sitting with what’s real and letting it transform you. It’s kind of comforting to know there are others who feel this too. If you don’t mind me asking, what kind of things have been helping you stay steady through it all lately?
I was a medical cannabis farmer for 25 years, prior to California's legalization law. I had a long personal history of fighting the government and big corporations over health issues, natural medicine vs big Pharma. I'd literally spent decades being chased through the forests by government helicopters. When legalization passed, I turned my medical cannabis farm into a ganja friendly Airbnb. Then the coronavirus lockdowns came. Wave after wave of refugees from San Francisco and Los Angeles escaping the open air prisons their cities had become came to my farm. They were terrified and shell shocked. They would show up triple masked and I would have to talk them down. I was part therapist, part radical revolutionary, part spiritual healer to them. They would leave the freedom and safety of my farm with a renewed look on life. Meanwhile, friends I'd known for decades were calling me a fascist. It was surreal. I realized I was fortunate that I had the opportunity to deal with and heal with the city refugees. I lost a lot of friends to covid, and I mourned the deaths of their souls while their bodies were still walking around gibbering the propaganda they'd been fed. But I made new friends and I valued their honesty.
Thanks for sharing your story, Richard. Glad you were there to shine a light in the darkness too. "part therapist, part radical revolutionary" LOL - I love this. It really did feel like we were called to be soldiers in a war we didn't sign up for.
Also, I completely relate to what you said about "I lost a lot of friends to covid, and I mourned the deaths of their souls while their bodies were still walking around gibbering the propaganda they'd been fed." I feel very much the same. It's been hard to watch, but I also gained new friends at the end of the day, so there was light at the end of that tunnel.
Here's a story of one old friend of mine who is still a friend. We've known each other for 30 years. He got married and moved to Nebraska in the late 90s. They homesteaded some land there and built a beautiful family farm. They raised 4 kids. Eventually he started an appliance repair business. When the lockdowns happened his wife went all in on totalitarianism. Because he was working outside the home she demanded he quarantine in his workshop for 2 weeks every time he went into someone's house to repair their washing machine or whatever. He spent 3 years living in his workshop. He could not see his children. 3 years he never so much as recieved a hug. He could not enter the house he built. As close as he could get to his wife or children was 6 feet from the porch. Everyone Wearing masks. After 3 years he finally gave up and moved to Missouri so he could be near his parents and his brother's family for Christmas. Now his wife says he abandoned them. He still pays all the bills for them. This is an example of the damage lockdown totalitarianism did. It was a crime against humanity.
In one move the system revealed both itself and its purpose. In one move it was no longer a mystery to know who understood the significance of what was happening and who did not.
I am no more responsible for someone else's level of consciousness than they are responsible for mine. That is why you can not wake anyone up. If you could you would negate sovereignty itself. All you can do is stand your ground. All you can do is demonstrate what it looks like to be rational and sane. My love for humanity was demonstrated by NOT wearing the useless mask because I knew wearing it validated the lies and promoted fear in the hearts and minds of the weak.
The irony is that deep down they too understand what is going on, they just lack the courage to stand in truth. That is another reason you can't wake anyone up. They worship cowardice and showed in real time that they would sacrifice their own children to their God. They demand the same level of obedience from everyone around them as well and not for the others salvation, no, no, but to hide the nature of their own folly.
How does the saying go? It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a sick society. Our problem is that we remain aligned to the creative force while the overwhelming majority of our brothers and sisters have abandoned it.
The real pain comes from this awareness. The real pain is witnessing the fall-out from those who chose ignorance.
Thank you for using your powerful voice. I very much appreciate your work. Feels like there is a real danger in the madness of the last 5yrs being swept under the rug - that what lies ahead will erase it. I hope it was a period of peak stupidity for our lifetime, but also know that is unlikely.
I still struggle with what happened and feel embarrassed by this. I lost my job and my story has yet to be written afresh with better friends, a more aligned career, etc. I wasted a lot of energy fighting externally with my employer. The real battle is inside I've come to understand through you and others. To use what happened - to use the anger and disgust - and to alchemize it into my true self, to let it burn away what was not of my soul, but in truth I let it burn me and almost consume me. Many years wasted, but I'm grateful I at least see this now.
As mentioned in the intro, for those who feel challenged my story - I won’t be debating you in the comments, especially those who question the validity of whether or not I’ve seen people die or get ill shortly after taking the vaccine.
Asking "source?!" "Prove it" when I'm merely sharing a story from people I've spoken to in a counselling context, is also odd. I find this kind of behaviour - a complete lack of empathy - demonstrates a different type of evil that the plandemic so clearly brought out of so many. I am not here to march out the scientific data, although there is plenty of people who focus on this, I merely telling a story-my story-which you are free to believe or not.
I understand cognitive dissonance may prevent you from considering that the shots you probably took were dangerous, and I can understand why you would want to argue with me about that to soothe your discomfort and reaffirm your belief - but you and I know that if you wanted to learn about alternative perspectives on this, you would have done so by now. It's all out there. It's no secret.
Here's a recent paper from Steve Kirsch for example, outlining how the vaccine harms outweigh any potential benefits: https://kirschsubstack.com/p/five-recent-papers-show-vaccine-covid?r=ymw2t&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web
I’ve had far too many of those conversations over the years to know that they tend to be fruitless. If you don’t believe me about the vaccine - please feel free to check out people like Steve Kirsch, John Campbell, Naomi Wolf, there’s tons of people sharing data on Substack alone.
There’s also a great film released about covid vaccine injuries at: https://followthesilenced.com/
I welcome heartfelt reflections and resonance, but I won’t be debating you on whether or not what I experienced and saw is real.
Side effects from the vaccine are real, not rare. If you took the vaccine and are well, be glad you didn't experience something like this. But your experience doesn't negate those who have.
I am a front line Paediatrician and a spiritual seeker and much of what you have written has hit home. I was one of the few people that took a very public stance against vaccines. I went to court in India to prevent their mandatory application to the paediatric population. And handed out medical exemptions to avoid the draconian and rather silly directives. Simultaneously, I separated from my abusive partner, and in the aftermath lost my home and my daughter. It's taken 4 years. I am still in a bitter legal battle as said abusive ex tries to bully me out of a fair settlement. But - my child moved in with me 2 years ago and the last 2 years has been.. Magical in so many ways. The turning point was adopting my dog Orion (probably a Buddha in his past life). I have since become a meditation facilitator and can totally see how NONE of that would be possible without the initiation that was Covid. My practices are also more about embodiment than anything else. I have been tuning in to my soul now as a practice for the last 5 years( with a vehemence). And also Veils of Reality. I am so glad to read your unfiltered story and wanted to validate your perspective by offering my own. For anyone choosing to evolve, these are exciting times. Chaotic, but full of the energy of the New as the old decripit order collapses around our ears
Yes, Covid has helped bring about a mass awakening. So glad to hear your daughter is back with you 💜🌟🙏
So well said. I am also sick and tired of people asking for scientific proof, and then not even bothering to read it when you do provide it to them. Can I copy this response? With credit, of course.
Agreed - Yes you can!
Thank you 🙏🙏🙏💜💜💜
I liked your article. One positive I can point to during Covid was that it is when I discovered Substack. I discovered an investigative journalist who had been writing some straightforward information about Covid. I created my own Substack in August 2021 and lurked here until this summer.
The only other way I can sum up Covid is by quoting St. Antony the Great from the 4th century when he said, “A time is coming when men will go mad, and when they see someone who is not mad, they will attack him, saying, 'You are mad; you are not like us.”
This piece brought up a lot for me because my life is so completely different than the way it was before and I still feel like I’m coming to terms with it. I faced the hatred on a really large scale because I kept my business open during COVID and subsequently faced criminal charges, a two year court battle and hefty fines. I received death threats and many people in my small town still refuse to talk to me. I am still experiencing some fallout due to the public nature of my stance. That being said I would not change a thing. I’m proud of what I did and who I’ve become and I want to keep learning and growing. If it weren’t for people like you who are sharing their experiences things would be much lonelier and harder to understand so thank you. ❤️
I am proud that you kept your business open, Alexandra!
I just posted that, for me, I have become comfortable with being an outcast if I am one because of decisions I feel aligned with.
I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that, Alexandra. I really feel your words. I was angry—raging, at times—at the gaslighting and psychological warfare enacted on humanity. The media manipulation. The censorship. The targeted hatred. It was brutal.
Like you, I truly don’t know how I would’ve stayed sane without voices like Laura’s speaking truth into that darkness. We were all dropped into the boiling pot—or the fire, as Laura so aptly describes it. And the worst part was how all of us unvaccinated so-called “conspiracy theorists" were publicly demonised by a weaponised MSM serving the agenda of elites with extremely deep pockets, hell-bent on rolling us into a technocratic dystopia. They largely failed but the fight for freedom is not over it's vital to stay aware. Gates just pushed through his 'wet dream' in Singapore, a sign that we cannot rest, or stay silent.
I lost my 2.5 million audience on Fascist Book for speaking out, and was attacked by MSM publicly, which obliterated my business overnight. And not long after, my marriage collapsed. Although my wife and I were initially on the same page, she wasn’t interested in pushing back or speaking out—she stayed passive. When we separated, she weaponised everything I had said during that time to try to take my son from me. That betrayal cut deep.
This piece by Laura is a lifeline. It brought it all back for me—the sheer insanity. The pressure cooker. The pain, the loss, and also the strange sense of clarity that came with standing up for what was morally right. I’ve had to go into a cocoon for a while, to pull back and regroup after years of speaking out. My energy was threadbare, especially after an acrimonious divorce and custody battle.
I will never forget the fear of the masked brigade, and all those dropping on the floor after taking the 'vaccine'. Some of them dead within hours, or a day or so later. The medics who got paid God knows how much for pushing that toxic crap, saying “nothing’s wrong.” The free doughnuts to lure more people to take the clot shot. FFS.
I honour your courage. Truly. And I’m grateful you’re still here, still standing, still growing. Keep going, sister. You’re not alone!
P.S Laura, you might not remember, but we connected via email and chatted back in 2020! The start of all the craziness... hugs.
Yes, I remember you Jaime! What a ride you've been through since then. I'm so sorry to hear about what happened to your family as a result of all the craziness. You're not alone - I've heard so many stories about the divide and conquer tearing families apart in extreme ways. Such crazy times we lived through. I'm glad to hear you're still standing after all of this. I'm sure you learned a lot from this. I honor your courage, too.
Thanks Laura! I honour and admire your courageous heart too! Keep in touch amiga. 🥰
Thanks for sharing, Alexandra. And jeez, you have really been through it! Death threats and criminal charges?! That is nuts. Thank you for staying strong. I'm sure even though it was hard, it helped you generate a resilient character who could stand for truth.
Thank you for sharing. It always feels a little strange to say, but in some ways, I do carry a kind of gratitude for what Covid disrupted because it jolted me out of a sort of sleepwalking state I hadn’t realized I was in-I’d become just comfortable enough with an uncomfortable life and that’s definitely not where I am now, so I am thankful for that nudge to fully commit to waking up. Of course, there is absolutely nuance and I know how devastating it was for so many. My mom died from internal bleeding related to Covid, and I have friends and family still dealing with effects from the vaccine. Then there was the collective hysteria that followed, and the strange aftershocks we’re still feeling across society and within ourselves. Sometimes I wonder how many people were fully awakened like me who might’ve otherwise kept puttering along without realizing it. And then how many people are still sleepwalking or choose to keep their eyes shut in the aftermath of what was in many ways a spiritual and psychological earthquake
Thank you for sharing, Laura. My biggest regret is that I fully drank the cool aid. Both my mom and mother-in-law were going through cancer at the same time and I thought it was my duty to protect them. Both ended up getting covid anyway and thankfully are both still with us and cancer-free. But I really regret having gotten the vaccine. I never tried to push it on anyone. But the mainstream narrative definitely had me in a choke hold. I'm grateful to have many friends on the same page with me now, but watching some of them vaccinate their children and then post about it on social media was devastating. As I began waking up, I was afraid to be vocal, but now I'm pretty sure most people know where I stand. However, the fear still comes up among new people.
A few days ago, someone posted about this topic in favor of vaccines. The entire post was cruel and degrading and I went against my better judgement and responded. The post had gone viral and had thousands of comments, so I felt as though I was writing into the void, but I was kind and respectful and offered a new perspective. The author responded almost immediately with more cruelty than I think I've ever received. I'm still kind of shaken up about it. But this is the problem you're speaking too--you share a different point of view and you're somehow made out to be Satan. It's the wild, Wild West out there, so thank you for being brave enough to speak up.
Hi Stephanie. Thank you for sharing your story here. It takes a lot of maturity to be able to see the truth after having fallen for the propaganda, and I honour the strength it must have taken in you to do that. Most people have doubled and tripled down since then.
If you are feeling healthy and well, you probably received one of the weaker shots; there was a significant difference in batches.
And, yes... the cruelty surrounding this topic has been unreal, and I'm sorry you had to experience that again recently. I've been in that space so many times. Unfortunately, due to the hostility, conversations about this topic are nearly impossible.
Thank you for shining a light, for seeing the truth, and for showing through your example that people can eventually wake up to the truth when they're ready. That truly inspires me.
Thank you so much for your kind reflection and for honouring my path.
I did have some health-related issues post shot, such as migraines and eczema. I’m also in early onset of perimenopause and I’m not sure if it’s somehow related. It’s so interesting to me how so many people have tripled down on their position. Brainwashing is so very real. Thank you for being a leader in this space and for bravely speaking your truth here. I have enjoyed following you on Instagram and am grateful to continue here on substack. Unrelated, but one of the first things I saw of yours was about holding another person in your heart during random interactions such as the grocery store, etc. And I’ve been integrating that into my daily life as best as I can ever since. ❤️
Brainwashed people respond with anger and hate as a protective mechanism. Acknowledging your point would cause their fragile, false worldview to crumble. They subconsciously protect themselves from hearing any information that might threaten their understanding of reality. I’m sure we all do that to some degree.
Yes I agree. I could definitely feel the ego-mania and fragility behind her cruelty. She had a large following and I think that’s the scariest part of all.
Yep - I remember at the beginning of Covid I held my breath and said what I thought. I remember feeling 'slaughtered' and 'dog-piled-upon' during those first few months. It was brutal. I don't enjoy conflict! (Venus conjunct my Sun) But I had to speak up (lots of Scorpio and Sadge) so I did. Eventually, I don't know what happened - either the fb algorithm changed and my posts didn't show up on my injected friends feeds or they just snoozed me because they didn't want to see my posts - but whatever it was - the conflict stopped and people stopped bothering me. So I continued to post what I believe in without issue now. It's fannnnntastic! But it sure took some courage in those first few months!
Agreed people need to start remembering who they really are
And it’s not just these meatsacks that live 75 years and dies…
https://lauramatsue.substack.com/p/what-covid-burned-away/comment/122668788?r=b8pvb&utm_medium=ios
Laura, you publicly chronicling the past 5 years makes me feel less isolated. It was such a dumpster fire!
3/13/20 was the last day I did a house call and I said on that day - we are going into mandatory jabs, masks and lockdowns! No one believed me. I was living in Los Angeles, my home of 20 years which I have since left, like you guys. I continued micro activism on social media until the hate got so intense I’d get heart palpitations when turning on my phone.
I no longer feel a need to warn people of the dangers of MRNA or any other health related issues. I’ve really come to accept that some, perhaps many, come to this earth plane to be slaves. Sounds harsh, but is true. Not everyone shares a deep need for sovereignty. And who am I to alter anyone’s path? That realization brought peace.
Thank you for sharing your creative work with the World!!!
OMG, I feel you with the heart palpitations. It's crazy how intense speaking out was during that time - the intense projections and push back we got. I experienced something similar. Glad to hear I'm not alone in that. It's true - at this point, there's no point in warning anymore, especially at this point. Ultimately, there's an important lesson in respecting others' free will in there. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
I also felt peace once I accepted that my stance on the vaccines and mandates was very uncommon and that my loved ones were unable to see through the BS. I did try to warn them with as much information as possible so no regrets. Hard seeing them go through the awakening now though.
Reading Laura’s post and the subsequent comments helps me feel more normal. From the beginning of the COVID saga, I voiced my opinion against the hype and when the vaccine was made nearly mandatory, I spoke of the dangers to deaf and angry ears. I was also ridiculed and shamed into silence.
Thank you so much for writing this as someone who lost a loved one to turbo cancer it genuinely means a lot to hear someone talk about the side effects of the vaccine it helps me feel not crazy so thank you for this beautiful story and for writing it
Hi Kai Rex,
I just posted about these "turbo cancers" being part of the PLAN. If the injection didn't kill you, you are SUPPOSED to get some kind of chronic illness, ESPECIALLY cancer, because the cancer industry is a big money-maker. All of the shot manufacturers are big players in the chemo game.
You are absolutely helping others light their own candle. Thank you for your strength, courage, determination, and for sharing it with us. Forever grateful.
Thank you Liza, I appreciate this.
Thank you Laura for finding the courage to speak your truth. Which has not only helped you strip away what wasn't authentic in your own life, but has helped many others to find their own courage to do the same.
I can relate to basically everything you've shared here. As the only one in my family who didn't go the narrative, I'm sure we have similar tales to tell. I've seen & experienced unprecedented loss, trauma & grief.
II have spent all of this year in some kind of recovery state. I feel like I've needed to finally stop & let my nervous system & spirit heal from the past five years. Not to mention I was also going through Pluto transitting my natal moon in that time. I am definitely not the same person I was 5 years ago. Thank fuck for that!
You & your husband have given many of us the support we couldn't find in our own worlds. When it was so incredibly isolating & lonely at times. Even though my family survived (despite 3 of them having major health problems as a result), I could see & feel the spiritual effects from the needle, & that was the most devastating.
Isn't it a wonderful thing how your words & wisdom ripple out in the world. I'm thousands of miles away, but you're lighting sparks in our souls. There are more stars sparkling in the darkness all the time. Much love to you.
Thanks for sharing Nikki. Capricorn or Cancer moon? It was extra intense to go through Pluto transits through all of these past 5 years. We need recovery just for that alone, LOL.
I'm so glad to hear that our voices helped you during those times. It really means a lot to hear that and makes me feel like the cancellations, the struggles, the losses, were all worth it in the end <3
I’m so glad you read my comment Laura, as I’ve felt so much gratitude for you & Bernhard, & I always wished you could know just what an enormous impact you make, & how much it changes people’s lives when you share your authentic journey like you do <3
I’m a 28 degree Cap moon (in the 8th house), with my Sun in Cancer. Pluto has been cracking me open for about 18 years now, & I even physically died in that time (I lost all my blood after child birth but was resuscitated & survived, but lost my womb), when it was opposing my Sun. So yes, needing recovery from Pluto transits alone is no joke! I knew you’d understand LOL. Thank you for your reply, and so great you’re on Substack. I don’t really engage with anything else much these days.
Pluto also transited my moon so I feel you! (and my sun and my venus) Big rebirth!
This is beautifuly written. Thank you for sharing. Reading your article has brought up alot in me from that era that I haven't fully processed yet. I knew from the start that the pandemic was a readjusting of our civilization and a direct assault on the human spirit, though I didn't know the finer details. Those have only stared to become known to me as the years have rolled by, in part thanks to you and Bernhard 🙏
The amount of suffering those few short yet seemingly endless years produced makes the heart ache. And yet, I feel like the madness of the covid period was the calm before an even bigger storm.
Let me help you remember deeper! Check out my posts àbout rudolf Steiner… do you know him?
https://lauramatsue.substack.com/p/what-covid-burned-away/comment/122668788?r=b8pvb&utm_medium=ios
Just posted a reel with excerpts from the Fall of the Spirits of Darkness. Rudolf Steiner knew, and he tried to warn us.
Indeed will check it out
Did you get to my post?
Not yet… but will get to it soon. It would be great if you could do the audios for the entire chapters. I hardly have time to read anymore 🤦🏻♀️ so audio is easier for me.
Nice review from AI.😉
Will post mine when I’m done reading it.
Do you have an affordable or free option for audio?
Substack does it automatically for you. It also lets you choose the voice (among five options, I think). Not sure if your past posts will automatically have audio if you change this in your settings, so you might need to repost them again. In my latest post titled The Covid Cartel, you can click on the play button at the top and listen to the audio of the full post. And I believe it also uploads it automatically to your podcast, if you’ve set it up. Tried taking a screenshot but I can’t upload photos here.
Since the beginning of the scamdemic, I've often said, "Did you think the Great Awakening would not be attended by a Great Unravelling?"
Beautiful piece. I can see myself and my journey through so much of what you shared. And yes, I think all of us finding our way to share stories from the last five years would be tremendously valuable.
Thank you Laura. Living in the wilderness enabled us to continue with our lives without interruption through the madness of the pandemic.
We chose never to be vaccinated,
I choose to live as far away from the massed pressure cooker of modern civilization as possible, always have, and always will.
Thank you for your thoughts. Well done!
Amen. many blessings to you Laura. This piece resonates strongly with me. Still have some things I should sit with a bit while adding some logs to that fire😊
Hey, I just wanted to say, I really felt your words. I’m actually new here and was just scrolling around, trying to find my way, when I stumbled across this post… and then your comment. It felt like a little moment of alignment, honestly. Laura’s post hit me deep too. So much truth and vulnerability in her story, it stirred up a lot in me that I haven’t fully unpacked yet either. That line you used about “adding some logs to that fire” really stuck with me. It’s such a gentle and grounded way to describe this ongoing process of sitting with what’s real and letting it transform you. It’s kind of comforting to know there are others who feel this too. If you don’t mind me asking, what kind of things have been helping you stay steady through it all lately?
Would really love to hear more if you don’t mind.
I was a medical cannabis farmer for 25 years, prior to California's legalization law. I had a long personal history of fighting the government and big corporations over health issues, natural medicine vs big Pharma. I'd literally spent decades being chased through the forests by government helicopters. When legalization passed, I turned my medical cannabis farm into a ganja friendly Airbnb. Then the coronavirus lockdowns came. Wave after wave of refugees from San Francisco and Los Angeles escaping the open air prisons their cities had become came to my farm. They were terrified and shell shocked. They would show up triple masked and I would have to talk them down. I was part therapist, part radical revolutionary, part spiritual healer to them. They would leave the freedom and safety of my farm with a renewed look on life. Meanwhile, friends I'd known for decades were calling me a fascist. It was surreal. I realized I was fortunate that I had the opportunity to deal with and heal with the city refugees. I lost a lot of friends to covid, and I mourned the deaths of their souls while their bodies were still walking around gibbering the propaganda they'd been fed. But I made new friends and I valued their honesty.
Thanks for sharing your story, Richard. Glad you were there to shine a light in the darkness too. "part therapist, part radical revolutionary" LOL - I love this. It really did feel like we were called to be soldiers in a war we didn't sign up for.
Also, I completely relate to what you said about "I lost a lot of friends to covid, and I mourned the deaths of their souls while their bodies were still walking around gibbering the propaganda they'd been fed." I feel very much the same. It's been hard to watch, but I also gained new friends at the end of the day, so there was light at the end of that tunnel.
Here's a story of one old friend of mine who is still a friend. We've known each other for 30 years. He got married and moved to Nebraska in the late 90s. They homesteaded some land there and built a beautiful family farm. They raised 4 kids. Eventually he started an appliance repair business. When the lockdowns happened his wife went all in on totalitarianism. Because he was working outside the home she demanded he quarantine in his workshop for 2 weeks every time he went into someone's house to repair their washing machine or whatever. He spent 3 years living in his workshop. He could not see his children. 3 years he never so much as recieved a hug. He could not enter the house he built. As close as he could get to his wife or children was 6 feet from the porch. Everyone Wearing masks. After 3 years he finally gave up and moved to Missouri so he could be near his parents and his brother's family for Christmas. Now his wife says he abandoned them. He still pays all the bills for them. This is an example of the damage lockdown totalitarianism did. It was a crime against humanity.
In one move the system revealed both itself and its purpose. In one move it was no longer a mystery to know who understood the significance of what was happening and who did not.
I am no more responsible for someone else's level of consciousness than they are responsible for mine. That is why you can not wake anyone up. If you could you would negate sovereignty itself. All you can do is stand your ground. All you can do is demonstrate what it looks like to be rational and sane. My love for humanity was demonstrated by NOT wearing the useless mask because I knew wearing it validated the lies and promoted fear in the hearts and minds of the weak.
The irony is that deep down they too understand what is going on, they just lack the courage to stand in truth. That is another reason you can't wake anyone up. They worship cowardice and showed in real time that they would sacrifice their own children to their God. They demand the same level of obedience from everyone around them as well and not for the others salvation, no, no, but to hide the nature of their own folly.
How does the saying go? It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a sick society. Our problem is that we remain aligned to the creative force while the overwhelming majority of our brothers and sisters have abandoned it.
The real pain comes from this awareness. The real pain is witnessing the fall-out from those who chose ignorance.
Great post
Love this, sounds like my truth as well
Thank you for using your powerful voice. I very much appreciate your work. Feels like there is a real danger in the madness of the last 5yrs being swept under the rug - that what lies ahead will erase it. I hope it was a period of peak stupidity for our lifetime, but also know that is unlikely.
I still struggle with what happened and feel embarrassed by this. I lost my job and my story has yet to be written afresh with better friends, a more aligned career, etc. I wasted a lot of energy fighting externally with my employer. The real battle is inside I've come to understand through you and others. To use what happened - to use the anger and disgust - and to alchemize it into my true self, to let it burn away what was not of my soul, but in truth I let it burn me and almost consume me. Many years wasted, but I'm grateful I at least see this now.